WARNING: Dear Reader, I should caution you before you get yourself in too deep. This story will leave you stuck in the middle of a narrative arch. The narrative arch is what structures all our favorite stories. It guides the reader through all the pain and turmoil to set them down gently at the end […]
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My Favorite Drug Dealer. At one time, Carly was one of San Diego’s most successful drug dealers. Her body guard packed a gun and she carried wads of cash in her purse. I met her several years later when she was in prison for the third time. She was eight months pregnant and about to be […]
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Why I Could Not Imagine Losing Baby Rachel When were the seeds of loss born? What circumstances led to such devastation upon losing a baby I had never even seen. Looking back, the trail seems to stretch across all the places I have ever been. Perhaps in was as recent as 2002, when I understood that my […]
Read MoreI hate to admit it, but painful experiences have been defining moments in my life. Who I am today has not been shaped as much by the things in my life that turned out right, but by the things that went all wrong. If I am kind and empathetic person, if you feel I understand something about you, then we […]
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January 15, 2016
Adoption, Birth, Decision Making, Faith, Friendship, Grief, Love, Rachel
A Post About Making Those Impossible Decisions. Eight years later, I still cry when I talk about it. I still ache for that baby I never held. I even dream of her. Once I woke in the night and thought she was standing there by my bed, telling me to love her still, telling me not […]
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Cindy Brewer
December 4, 2018
Adoption, Death, Faith, Family, Friendship, Grief, Rachel
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